|Posted by christiandoula on May 8, 2009 at 10:05 AM|
My dear friend, Missy, is in her 4th week of bedrest with her TTTS twins. She's living an hour and half from home, is quite lonely, and is about to face a hospitalized mother's day. Most days she feels strong, and fully dependent on God's sovereignty, but other days she is weepy and needy, feeling God's comfort and care for her in her helplessness.
Here is how she has witnessed to another mother, who doesn't know our Lord and Savior:
"About our earlier conversation, I hope that I didn't give you the impression that I don't struggle daily with being here in the hospital away from Chris and the girls. It really stinks, and I spend a lot of time crying and grieving about it all. I guess my point was that by God's grace I have been able to see the goodness in this situation while in the midst of it--my faith has grown so much that I'm not sure I even knew what faith really was until now, my neediness has given many the opportunity to be the hands and feet of Christ for me and my family, my weakness has given me the opportunity to testify about God's strength which gets me through this every day, and going through this has allowed me to see motherhood in a way I've never experienced before. Believe me when I say, staying up all night with a sick toddler or losing sleep because not one but two little girls are trying to push you out of a bed that was not made for 4 bodies, are not high on my list of good times. Perhaps being away from the day-to-day monotony of mothering has made me a bit nostalgic but I do miss it and can't wait to get back to it. Coming so close to losing our babies has made me see every day as a gift that makes whatever I have to go through here and now worth it. But I don't believe this outlook is because I'm a positive person or some sort of crazy supermom. It's only because I know that this didn't just happen to us by chance, but God actually chose this path for us so that we could rely on Him and so He could be glorified through our weakness and suffering."
Praise God for how he molds us and makes us through every circumstance in our lives.